Is it easy to love God's will?
That is my question. I asked God this morning, in the shower, what is His will for my life with this work situation? I am wondering if it is possible to love His will? I met with the administrator of the school yesterday afternoon, and not all of my questions were answered as I had hoped. I don't know that Grace and Ryan will be able to be there with me after all. I will find out soon enough, but their preschool is based on ages, and 3's go twice a weeks, and 4's go three days a week. So I am waiting to see....Please stay in prayer for me. Also, my final offer will have to be a little bit more than what they told me yesterday in order to make it worth my while to go to work. Daycare is expensive. Bottom line. I will be honest and say, that I want to be in God's will, and I know He will show me, but I am back to leaving my little ones again, and this is a very hard situation to consider for me. It's such a delicate balance between working and being a mom, and I feel a bit like the clown in the middle of the circus trying to juggle the batons while another clown keeps increasing my amount of batons in which to juggle. You know?
I did, however, have a wonderful day with the kids yesterday. We went downtown and walked around the historic district, and went into this really cool toy store, where they each got a little something. Then we went to this little restaurant and had a nice little lunch where the kids were offered a kid's plate that included cheese, turkey, fruit, and whole grain bread for 1.50! I loved that! We played at the table, and talked and then we finished, and walked around some more, and then we went to our friend's house and played and had a barbecue. Then we came home and camped out in my room and watched full house, and went to bed. It was an enjoyable day. I love spending days with them like this.
God is so gracious to me to have given me the opportunity to have such special children. They are, indeed special. Bailey and I have gotten to have some heart to heart talks during our drives back and forth to town, and I have really enjoyed that. Gracie and Ryan love to listen to this funny song called, "The frog in the cocunut tree." They laugh so hard, and it does my heart good to see them so happy in the rearview mirror. I love their smiles!
I did, however, have a wonderful day with the kids yesterday. We went downtown and walked around the historic district, and went into this really cool toy store, where they each got a little something. Then we went to this little restaurant and had a nice little lunch where the kids were offered a kid's plate that included cheese, turkey, fruit, and whole grain bread for 1.50! I loved that! We played at the table, and talked and then we finished, and walked around some more, and then we went to our friend's house and played and had a barbecue. Then we came home and camped out in my room and watched full house, and went to bed. It was an enjoyable day. I love spending days with them like this.
God is so gracious to me to have given me the opportunity to have such special children. They are, indeed special. Bailey and I have gotten to have some heart to heart talks during our drives back and forth to town, and I have really enjoyed that. Gracie and Ryan love to listen to this funny song called, "The frog in the cocunut tree." They laugh so hard, and it does my heart good to see them so happy in the rearview mirror. I love their smiles!
posted by Solid Rock Youth Ranch | 1:46 PM
1 Comments:
My grandparents were just right there!! Right there in McMinnville and raved about how precious and adorable the town is. She said it's so picturesque and that it is one place she and Jack could live happily (and believe me they are selective and there aren't many! :) ) So that says a lot about where you live to me! I pictured it as this patch of farmland with nothing there but mean neighbors for some reason! Haha. But I can tell you enjoyed it with the kids yesterday.
I am so confused for you. I think when you are in God's will you are at peace. I think that peace may not always mean happiness, but I don't think juggling like a clown sounds very peaceful at all! I am really heart-wrenched for you...that this has dragged on for so long. And if it seems that way to me, how much more to you!
God is good. I have to come back to that. He will make all these ends meet. I was overwhelmed with the idea of taking Evan to preschool so I can't imagine how overwhelmed juggling all of this is sounding to you. But I have to believe and pray that God will make a way for everything to work. I will keep praying. I promise. May His answers and plan be revealed soon!
Katie
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